Lately, I've been... what's the wording... dragging? For a good while, I've been having trouble falling asleep early enough to get a good amount of rest. They usually recommend 7 - 8 hours, but for a while, I've been only getting 4 - 5 if I'm lucky. I see the time and it always gets later and later every passing night before I decide to go to sleep. And as a result, I've been waking up later and later in the morning to go to work. I completely crash and sleep in on the weekends because I know that at least that way, I can somehow catch up on my sleep. Of course, that is always a bad idea. Your body became adjusted to the new sleep cycle you experienced and any change in length will disrupt your sleep flow yet again. I often wake up with headaches when I sleep more than 6 hours. I try to sleep it off and of course, it makes it worse.
The disruption in my sleep has began to rub off into my daily routine. I've noticed that at the beginning of this week, I've been experiencing pain in my left foot. At first, I thought it was a cramped muscle in the arch of my foot. Then I realized that it might be my ankle since now the pain is crawling up to that region of my foot. And then today, I got a shot of pain coursing through my left thigh for about half a second. It's strange how everything is happening on the left side of my lower body.
I also started to noticed how I'm appearing slightly unapproachable and/or looked like I don't want to be bothered. Today, I felt like a recluse within the public surrounding. I usually keep to myself anyways on any other day, but today, I just wanted everyone to leave me alone. Strangers, mostly. The only things that slightly cheered me up out in public were dogs. And if the owners never displayed any objection, I would spend 5 minutes just petting the dogs.
As for my prospects... well, prospect (singular), we have such conflicting schedules that right now, we have no idea when we can meet up. It's very reminiscent of this past October - November when I was in the beginning stages with that other girl; we started talking at the beginning of October and didn't finally meet face to face until the beginning of November. I'm hoping that, at least with this girl, she is just as flexible and patient with finding a time for us to finally meet up and hang out. And it seems like she wants to spend almost half a full day together (that's at least the vibe I get from her hesitance with scheduling a night after work). For right now, I'm hoping that she doesn't give up on working out a time to hang out.
I'm going to try to pass out early (I think I eventually will sooner or later because of how much sleep I've been missing out on). Maybe a good night's rest will change this damper I currently have on myself.
With (half-asleep) love,
Ben
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